poem: when i let myself fall onto this earth

a hangover from too much touching-starving

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now, i won a giveaway to my now-friend Aiske’s program ACE IT! - the first task was to make a vision board for the near future. i opened up pinterest and let myself select pictures that expressed what i wanted to experience soon. second, we were asked to present the board. i sat down and started writing down the list when I got bored. i left the task undone until an hour before our next meeting. i wrote this poem. it was a beg for the future to be better, more hopeful and kinder to me. foremost to my future self to be kind to myself and not allow feelings to overtake me like this no more. as soon as a month later, i felt it, the relief, the change, the difference to the june’23 me writing this poem and the july’23 me reading it again for the first time. i was stunned. since then this poem’s been kinda special to me. it means a lot of different things to me and today, i’m sharing it with you. enjoy <3 and remember to be kind to yourself.