'No one expected me. Everything awaited me.'

writing, reading & absorbing my reality: the blissful mornings in spain

almost every new page of patti smith’s just kids gets annotated or highlighted with love by my pen. I’ve read it years ago in German and oh boy, the English original is finally my heaven.

Page 25, she writes: No one expected me. Everything awaited me.

The entire Internet will tell you how many new friends for life you make on your solo-travels. The truth is that I only met people I’ve already been in touch beforehand and ones I met at concerts. You don’t meet people right on the street or on your daily walk to the market. I know there are these stories and they’re real for a lot of people. I’m just tired occasionally when people believe them too much and get disappointed that you’re always on your own, at all times. You meet new people here and there, you can make friends. But you’ll be on your own. You’re arriving on your own, no one’s expecting you and life’s sweet experiences are awaiting you. At night, you’ll always be by yourself. If you lay next to someone or your entire hostel is fully booked. It’s the same as with the quote that holds so much truth in it: You’ll change up your environment, but you can’t escape your inner problems. I still dream of the same things as I did at home. I still write the same story as at home. I still have the same duties and tasks to accomplish. I still have the hours in the night where I cry to Bruce Springsteen and wanna scream all my anger to the pitch-dark new moon. There’s still the yearning for a presence and the longing for love. Baby, running away from your home won’t help you escape yourself. You’ll always have yourself, no matter what.